Miles to Go

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I am beginning to hate sleep.

Not *sleeping* - once I am there, I am certainly loathe to leave.

No, I hate sleep. The concept. The practice. I would rather it not be necessary at all. I sit at 2 am and consider how little I want to go to bed, and how irritable and headachey I will be tomorrow if I don't. I think of how early I have to get up, and how the irritability and headache are already inevitable, and I think to myself "I hate sleep."

I would rather just .. not. Not sleep. Not crash out looking for an oblivion that doesn't actually achieve much. Just stay awake, and chase waking oblivions instead.

Comments

[natfudge.livejournal.com]

Dude, I have been this way my WHOLE life... I will FIGHT to stay awake no matter if I have to be up early... I've always been like this, ever since I was a baby, can sleep for hours once I'm asleep and hate waking up, but getting me to sleep initially is hell on wheels.

I feel for you... I really do.

[charming-syrai.livejournal.com]

So with you on that. Especially since lately my 'sleeping' has not been that, but instead of something like me rolling in the bed from one side to another, blanket on, blanket off, blanket on, too hot, too cold, too hot, too cold, thristy, hungry, more rolling --- and after doing that for three hours, I'm still not tired AT ALL. So yeah. Sleep is waste of time.

.. of course when I actually do manage to fall asleep, there's no way to get me up. In that case, living is waste of time and I'd rather sleep 20 years. So I'm difficult - we all knew that.

[infiticus.livejournal.com]

I've always been nocturnal by nature. I go to bed really really late (or really really early, depending on the interpretation). When I was in school I'd often simply not go to bed at all. But I've always been someone who ultimately will decide they're tired and just go to bed.
Of course, whether or not I then make it to sleep is something else entirely.

This ... dislike of sleep is new for me. Before it was just something I did or did not do at any given time. Now, it's like this looming cloud over my day.

[infiticus.livejournal.com]

Seems we can all be difficult together.

Maybe this is cause I've had to get up in the morning so much the last few months. I used to at least be able to sleep a bit later, cause 7 am to 9am is just the Worst Time Ever. Now I have to be awake for that time every bloody day.

[goblie.livejournal.com]

Meh.

I can't actually decide what to say to this. So I won't say anything.

*Hugs for you*