Miles to Go

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I am beginning to hate sleep.

Not *sleeping* - once I am there, I am certainly loathe to leave.

No, I hate sleep. The concept. The practice. I would rather it not be necessary at all. I sit at 2 am and consider how little I want to go to bed, and how irritable and headachey I will be tomorrow if I don't. I think of how early I have to get up, and how the irritability and headache are already inevitable, and I think to myself "I hate sleep."

I would rather just .. not. Not sleep. Not crash out looking for an oblivion that doesn't actually achieve much. Just stay awake, and chase waking oblivions instead.

Comments

[natfudge.livejournal.com]

Dude, I have been this way my WHOLE life... I will FIGHT to stay awake no matter if I have to be up early... I've always been like this, ever since I was a baby, can sleep for hours once I'm asleep and hate waking up, but getting me to sleep initially is hell on wheels.

I feel for you... I really do.

[infiticus.livejournal.com]

I've always been nocturnal by nature. I go to bed really really late (or really really early, depending on the interpretation). When I was in school I'd often simply not go to bed at all. But I've always been someone who ultimately will decide they're tired and just go to bed.
Of course, whether or not I then make it to sleep is something else entirely.

This ... dislike of sleep is new for me. Before it was just something I did or did not do at any given time. Now, it's like this looming cloud over my day.